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(via notmycat801)

I don’t want to leave the house today.

I really just want to stay in bed. I made myself get up and take the dogs for a walk and I have to leave for work in an hour but I don’t want to. I just don’t want to leave the house today because I’m sad. But I’m sad for a reason that no one outside of the internet will understand (except Ty I think he gets it) so I can’t just call into work. I have to go. I just really don’t want to. I need a hug.




And remember that I love you even at my worst.


now i can show this to everyone who’s like “you’re kinda quiet today what’s wrong”

and they can finally leave me the fuck alone

Almost daily.

(Source: waiting-to-sleep, via fayemilly)


I will write about the following. Leave one in my ask box:

Dear person I hate,

Dear person I like,

Dear ex boyfriend,

Dear ex girlfriend,

Dear ex bestfriend,

Dear bestfriend,

Dear Santa,

Dear Mom,

Dear Dad,

Dear future me,

Dear past me,

Dear person I’m jealous of,

Dear person I had a crush on,

Dear [future] girlfriend,

Dear [future] boyfriend,

Dear *anyone*,

Do it

(via justdoitforthelegthing)


you’re allowed to like the way you look. you’re allowed to think that you’re pretty. you’re allowed to like the way you do things. you’re allowed to like your’re allowed to do what you want to do. you’re allowed to like your music taste. you’re allowed to like a certain movie. you’re allowed to like your clothing taste. you’re allowed to be yourself. you’re allowed to love yourself. it’s ok. you’re beautiful and don’t let anyone tell you wrong.

(via bored-and-ign0red)


So Ty’s grandma has cancer. They think they can beat because they caught it so early. So she’ll be in a treatment center for 6 to 8 weeks. And she has her 30 year medallion for being sober coming up. So we all booked the day off work to be with her for her celebration. Also because she isn’t going to have any energy when she’s in treatment and her husband isn’t in the best health either, we’re going to be taking care of their dog. I wish it was under different circumstances but I am excited to have another dog in the house. I’ve been wanted to get another dog for a long time so I’m excited that in a way we are.

me: wow I'm fat

me: maybe I look ok


me: I'm fucking disgusting I'm losing weight now

me: I am more than just my weight!

me: who the fuck cares about anything

me: I AM SO FAT.

me: idk curves are beautiful i am beautiful

me: i hate myself

FRIENDLY REMINDER: ur tummy is cute as HECK and u should eliminate anyone that tells u otherwise

(Source: magneito, via l-a-c-u-n-a)




My therapist told me instead of hurting myself I should draw something pretty were I want to cut. This is the result. And it works, honestly. If you’re struggling with self harm I really recommend this. (Make sure you use a marker and not a pen cause pens can hurt you! )

So much respect. 

i thought this was a tattoo and i was like wow that is a rad ass tattoo

(via castielsunderpants)


you do not need to constantly justify yourself. go ahead. eat pancakes. eat a ton at dinner. eat ice cream sundaes at 1am. take a rest day. take six rest days. sleep in. watch a movie. watch ten movies. no explanations needed. you’re allowed to be kind to yourself.

(via radical-self-love-project)

Last Night.

So I had a crap day at work yesterday and Ty picked me up and we decided to go out for dinner. While at dinner I decided “Hey I’ll have a couple drinks why not?!”

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Ty’s second tattoo

So things are finally in motion for Ty to get his second tattoo. He wants to get his family crest on his forearm. I got a hold of his aunt and she sent me the crest that Ty’s grandfather got painted after doing a ton of research about their family. So the next step is to take the picture down to Ty’s tattoo artist and get a quote then I can get the money for the deposit and we can get the appointment made. I told Tyler I’ll pay for as much of the tattoo as I can for his birthday gift. Hopefully we can get an appointment at least in the month of his birthday. If not some time in the summer will still be good. Tyler is really excited to get his second tattoo. I’m really excited for him! Hopefully it wont be as long as his first one. 7 hours is a long time to sit in a tattoo shop not to mention for Tyler to be getting a tattoo. So we’ll see what happens.