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Back into therapy

I’ve started going back to therapy since my recent breakdown. I am feeling good about it. I think I need to be seeing someone and work through my issues. My emotions are not great lately. Last night was pretty bad. I started thinking about cutting and then I thought, “Why not? Why shouldn’t I do it?” Which I’m still kind of thinking about. What would stop me? What would it hurt to just do it once? My emotions are so up and down lately and I can’t seem to figure out what the hell I’m feeling or why I’m feeling it.

my math teacher: *pulls out dollar bill* how much is this worth?

Students: $1

teacher: *folds bill in half* how much is this worth now?

students: $1

teacher: *folds bill in half again* how much is it worth now?

students: $1

teacher: what about if I crumple it up and throw it on the ground? Will someone pass by it and say, "Ooh, a dollar, but I won't pick it up because it's all crumpled and dirty"?

students: No, because it's still worth a dollar.

teacher: Exactly. No matter how much a human goes through or how much they do, they're still worth the life of a human.

nitrqin:

I wonder if I ever caught someones attention. Even if I was just walking among the crowd, I wonder if they wanted to get to know me or anything like that.

(via allthesecondsofsummer)

“So, what if, instead of thinking about solving your whole life, you just think about adding additional good things. One at a time. Just let your pile of good things grow.”
Attachments, Rainbow Rowell  (via mickeyng)

(Source: anditslove, via justdoitforthelegthing)

“You never know how sick you are until you try to recover.”
— (via awkwarddly)

(Source: oxygeniuss, via lets-create-fate)

the-psycho-cutie:

i didn’t realize growing up meant dying inside but hey it’s whatever

(via joesuphsugg)

Feeling suicidal? Can’t talk on phones?

transbear:

horrorpeach:

crankyskirt:

IMAlive is a live online network that uses instant messaging to respond to people in crisis. People need a safe place to go during moments of crisis and intense emotional pain.

https://www.imalive.org/

Holy shit this is brilliant

AMAZING. BOOST IT.

(Source: bowtietemporaltraveler, via internal-acceptance-movement)

riceisholy:

Note to self: Stay Body Positive

riceisholy:

Note to self: Stay Body Positive

(via flipthepj)

sktagg23:

Reblogging this in honor of Robin Williams. Please, if you are battling depression or suicidal thoughts, I desperately urge you to talk to someone. I will listen, and so will the people at this number.

sktagg23:

Reblogging this in honor of Robin Williams. Please, if you are battling depression or suicidal thoughts, I desperately urge you to talk to someone. I will listen, and so will the people at this number.

(Source: weheartit.com, via justyoutubersthings)

koalatea:

i hate when ppl make fun of me for trying 2 be positive and spread good vibes like fuck your bitter ass i spent a good portion of my short life being bitter and angry and suicidal if i wanna shoot sunshine out of my ass then i fuckin will 

(via amahzingphil)